Quite a dilemma

[Embalmer]

I thought about that, and seeing as many people as I have abuse it, I wouldnt feel right. I had no intentions of touching that till was retirement time (though prob long gone by then).

talked to my parents and grandparents, they too are all struglging, but they are willing to try to help so I can keep both. Its yet another thing I dont want, as I never asked for help from anyone or anything... Mybe its just my pride of being able to be totally self sufficiant but may have to swallow pride at this point...